I try to lead a somewhat normal life… but what’s normal… a serial killer finds killing normal… a preacher finds preaching love about “GOD” normal… so basically…normal is anything that you’re comfy with… sure does give you an interesting perspective on what me or anyone else would consider to be normal… it could be anything… but sadly… society would consider my life a bit caotic… but life is just that… caotic… everytime you fail miserably or screw up… what do stupid people say that makes them think that they’re actually helping you through that crisis but are actually making it worse… “hey, that’s life”… and instead of making the situation better it makes it alot worse… because you begin to wonder…”if this is life… if this is what i have to worry about everytime i fail in something or mess up… then why even bother?” But that’s just it… that’s what life is… it’s one big failer… i mean… we all die in the end… we usually never accomplish anything too satisfying with our sometimes and tragically short lives… then I say, “Yeah, why bother?” I’ll tell you why… in our lives… the majority of us know that our family is ALWAYS going to be there for us… so the thing that we always strive for is… a person to love and love us back, no matter how deep the shit gets or how bad the farts smell, someone to be there for every accomplishment, every promotion, every time you have a baby, everytime you fail, someone to basically… be there in the shit with you. Because let me tell you, you sexy reader of this you, whenever things do go your way, when you don’t fail and do something that you can think of being better than turning air to gold…and you have someone to rap their arms around you and say, “Congratulations” or “Good job” or not even say anything at all, but simply grab you, look into your eyes, and kiss you, it gives life meaning, it justifies all failers, it makes your cancer seem less gloomy ans shitty, it gives you a reason to bother.

I love you all for reading this far….. have a good afternoon, good evening and goodnight….

ALFIE ?